So there we were, my virginity gone and my heart broken. I felt like I had let him down.
I felt like I had let myself down.
So many thoughts went through my head: Why couldn’t I have been one of those wives? Why did I have to ruin our first time? Why had I failed at giving him something I had planned my whole life? Why did it hurt so badly? Why was I so terrified? Why did I feel so dirty?